It’s been a minute since I’ve come on here & chatted with my readers. I’m going to be real with you. I’m struggling right now. My social media accounts tell a whole other story. According to most of my platforms, business is good; everything is randy; skin is glowing blah blah blah. Well, that’s just an illusion. It’s easy to forget that what we see on social media is what people let us see. And the same goes for me. So much of my life is spent on social media, because it’s part of what I do. But there is also a huge part of my life, & things that go on that I don’t share with you.
I’m trying not to be a Negative Nancy, but being positive isn’t easy either. I like to think of myself as a problem solver, & when I have a problem that’s all I want to do – solve it! But lately I’m facing problems that are out of reach. And it’s become difficult. There are days when I’m so over having a blog or creating Instagram content. And it’s not because I don’t enjoy it all. It’s not because I can’t find topics to talk about; outfits to style; or YouTube videos to make. It’s really because I’m struggling in other areas & that negativity filters through into everything else.
I had a catch up session with one of my closest friends, Angelique over the weekend. I think I talked her ear off. Being single (¬ dating) & living alone, leaves so much unsaid. I’m by no means lonely lol. But I often miss having someone to talk to. I talk my mom’s ear off when I see her too. I vent a lot. My point to all this was to share something Angie said to me. She basically told me that I’m too hard on myself, which is very true. I’ve always been that way. Another thing I’m trying to work on.
Anyway, I’m going to continue to attempt to see the glass half full rather than half empty. Anyone who knows me knows how hard that is for me, but I will try. I’m sorry if you came here looking for light content. But do keep me in your thoughts. I just wanted to be real with you guys. And the pictures are cute though right? I really loved this look. Prince & I were vibing so much while shooting. It was really awesome. See, there is a silver lining. Great pictures accompanying a meh post about my life.
Images by Prince Edgie (@princeedgie)